A Wet Wednesday

Ever notice how hearing the cars drive by in the rain has a sort of lullaby effect and makes you want to stay in bed? That's how I fell asleep last night....ahhh, felt so good. I love this picture by the way, I love the style of it, and its energy.

Had an AMAZING dream which actually involved a co-worker who I really admire, but in this dream, he and I were talking relationship and it was so cool. In reality, he's happily married, and I would never so much as flirt with him because I respect him so much, but the dream was cool because it gave me a lot to think about in terms of what I was attracted to ..in the dream. If you can keep up with me and the little sense I seem to be making! But he was attractive, supportive, and believed in me. This is the kind of man I see myself being with, and the kind of man I have yet to meet.

I really think that the power of what is in your thoughts is what determines what will happen in real life. So, I'm resolving to fully believe that I will meet a wonderful man with whom I can share my life, and who will support me in my endeavers towards a life geared around fitness and well being.

Yesterday I let the angry binge monkeys crowd around me and take me down. It's so hard being at work right now knowing that I fully do not intend to be there 1 year from now. Sadly, it's directly interfering with my fitness goals. But the mornings, and in the evenings when I get home from work are the best parts of my day. The regular, repeated stress of tolerating my job is getting to me and threatens to get ugly, well damn..it already IS ugly.

Today I vow: I will put out positive, hopeful energy into the world today, in the hopes that energy will in turn find me out and fuel me through to the evening.

If it not be now yet it will come

Today I worked at the gym in the morning, and before I woke up I felt rested and ready to start the day. I had a dream where I was talking with Wayne Gretsky...except I can't remember what he was telling me.

Went to get my usual espresso fix before work and psych myself up for a good day. Sometimes that involves reading the free Metro paper, or if I'm lucky enough to snag a 'real' paper, I'll do that. Nothing to read on Sundays, so today I pulled up my notebook and start to read through some energizing text I had written down from before, and then added to it. I started with some quotes from Richard Monette's book, "This Rough Magic". I picked out some stuff while I was reading that really struck a chord with me.

theme - The courage to change one's mind.

p.150 Hamlet becomes the changed man. If it not be now yet it will come: the readiness is all.

p. 177 And I share his love for the wounded

Then I started to just jot down thoughts, concepts, ideas, dreams...there are no rules to it.

After work I was pretty drained, so didn't work out. Came home and the roomie was napping, so went back out again and purchased Laird Hamilton's book "Forces of Nature". I had already read a fair bit of it while in Chapters the other day. I adore his outlook on life, his philosophy about eating well, living healthy and working out and basically living for your dreams. Came home and the roomie was out, so cleaned the bathroom and got some food prep done for tomorrow. Now I feel energized to work out, but it's Sunday, so the gym closes at 6pm, which is in about 5 mins, so that kinda sucks. I look forward to really getting a good sweat going tomorrow morning.

Food wise today wasn't a bad day. I didn't have much of an appetite, so there weren't any mad food cravings to deal with. Right now the challenge is to get through my days without having to deal with my usual triggers, so I'm going to have to apply some prethought to my route to work. This week might have to involve leaving the wallet at home!

Later Kiddies!

Back to the Grind

Hmm...I thought I just posted something but it's gone. Interesting.

Ok so I'll try and remember what I just wrote. First day back after coming off a week of junk food and high sugar foods, which means, I'm cranky and craving stuff like a crazy ass mo pho!!

Got to the gym for some cardio though, managed to get this done:

Treadmill 25 mins
Eliptical 10 mins HIIT (30 secs on, 60 secs recovery)

Still battling the cold, so the dry air is making my throat hurt, and my voice is almost gone. Got to get through the day without succumbing to the junk food beasts. Or...as my psychologist would call it, the Angry Binge Monkeys. Hehe, she rocks.